Confession

Tonight I am reminded that patience is a virtue. I never believed that before. I believed in now. I believed in here. But that hurts. Because now and here I am hurt by you. I captured the moment with you. With each of you. And now I sit here hurt and wishing I had let the moment slip away. Different than anything you’ve heard before you say? Heh, clearly you’ve never heard me speak. Yes, I’ll fit the mode. Yes, I’ll be whole you want me to be but that ain't me. That’s whom you want to see. This is me. This is who I am. I speak truth that NO ONE else is willing to admit. We’ll take stands on life, climate, satire, color, rainbows, and teeth but never on what matters: me. Not you. But me. Heh, this is all about me. Each of you are puppets in my life, I focus to bring you to life. I am not your master, only your observer and reactor. I am your audience. I take what I must from you and I carry on with my life after. You will not bring the ugly out of me.