His Happiness

He wants me to get over him. I couldn’t believe all he was saying. He was drunk, so very drunk. And the first thing my dear Jon looses is control of his tongue. I was saddened and pleased by his understanding that I have to get over him. He said he knew even talking to him that night we had put me a few steps back in that process. He wanted me to be happy. I kept saying I just wanted him to be happy. Because that is what I want. If I were to just hear that he was dating someone else happily or even talking to someone who he planned to date soon, just so that he would be happy. I hated hearing how upset all these past females have made him. I hate that I added to that. I just want to see him happy. That is all. But he told me he wasn’t happy without me. He makes me feel like my presence in his life actually mattered. I know that part of him wants to see me marry a good man that my family likes and I love. But he knows that this will mean that he won’t be happy, at least for a period. Lord, I pray for him now. Father, please, I cry out to You! I know that You can make him happy again.

Last night I realized I could surely let him go. I was already starting to be over him. God, You’ve healed me from that relationship, I am able to look at him and smile. I am able to remember the good times that were, but understand and respect that they will never happen with him again. Lord, please, give him peace of mind and let him feel Your love for him. I don’t think I can stop praying for him, and I thank You for that, Lord. Somebody needs to stop thinking about themselves when they interact with him. Someone needs to think about him. Everyone who spends time with him thinks of themselves. I wish someone would show him that they care for him not their own gain. Just let him be happy.

I think he is finally outta my system. It took so long. I only pray for him now. Now, I wish things could be different but I accept that they won’t be. Let him be happy.