Dancing

2 months, 1 week, 3 days, and 12 hours ago I responded yes to your request to love me. I sit here now and compute the time spent investing in "our" future. The firsts recorded. The conversations had. The hurts endured. The moments forgiven. The end. I wonder if I wasted 2 months, 1 week, 3 days, and 12 hours of my life. I realize that I did not. I learned a great deal. I learned how to communicated effectively even when I'm upset. I learned patience. I learned endurance. I learned to admit when I'm wrong, not only when its obvious and easy but when its unclear and difficult. I learned that I don't have it figured out. I learned that no matter how much you desire for things to work, ultimately, it must be a two way street. When you choose to disregard another person and ignore them, that gets you nowhere. But when you effectively communicate, that's when gold happens. But some times someone chooses its not worth the trouble. And that's okay. That is the purpose of dating. You teach someone how they treat you by what you will accept. Sometimes people are simply not willing to accept certain things. And that's fine. Whoever you marry is going to have issues and you get to choose what issues those are. By God's sovereignty and perfection He never gives us more than we can bare, but He does let us know when it is time to bow out. And so the curtain closes, and we weep because the play was a phenomenal act, the audience claps and stands to leave. I sit in the balcony and watch as my viewers exit one by one. I return to the stage and reminisce. I was not acting. It was all true for me. It was all so real. But, in the end, I know what my Lord has for me isn't actors on a stage, but genuine love which I find in Him. He values me and I value Him. He loves and holds me and I serve Him. He interacts with me in the way I need and requires nothing of me. Oh how perfect He is! I am grateful that though the play is over, I remain on the stage with my God dancing, for who ever may enter the theater of my life again to observe. I can only hope that they will choose to dance with Him also. Oh what joy He brings. What peace He brings. Join me. Here, dancing with my Savior.